thanks.. i'm feeling better. yesterday i fell into a deep slumber. i think i kinda release what i kept inside through blogging, spending time with friends and talking to people.. even if it means not talking about my problem.
hmm. i used to keep things to myself completely.. but i learn to let go a little, rather i force myself to let go a little. and you will be amazed how this 'little' can make you so much better. even now, i still cannot say everything out. normally i would say only abit.. even if people ask. sometimes my friends dig and dig and dig just for me to say one sentence or two.
but i think ultimately only you can decide what to do for yourself. you don't have to say everything out, i don't do that as well. but you need to know when to do it..
for friends, it's all about giving and taking. you can still share your problem with your best friend even if she's miles away. email, blog, msn.. it's not about the distance.. it's about getting it out from yourself. even if it all fails, just bear in mind you have her who care for you.
everyone is busy, my friends all are as well. but i'm sure your friends are willingly to spare a little time for you. if their way don't work for you, tell them. tell them drinking doesn't work for you.. if they insist, then it's either they have a unique way of caring or they don't at all. :/
if not, just spend time with your loved ones.. it makes you better too! it worked for me.. sometimes i don't share my problem. i merely spend time with them..
oh! and you don't need to really talk to a close friend to feel better. sometimes it's better to talk to someone distance without mentioning those deep details. :)
hmm. don't be silly, don't be jealous of me. i think you magnified my situation quite a bit. :/ sometimes i guess, it's us who makes things more difficult for ourselves. sometimes we overlook what our friends did and feel taken granted for. sometimes we think no one is willing to listen, but in fact it's because we never did try talking. sometimes we think no one care, but it's not true. sometimes we magnified other people's happiness and zoom out on ours..
zoom in on your happiness, my dear.. you have a loving husband and that's something not every woman can get or have. you have your little kayden, and thats what makes a mother proud and happy!! do things you like, it makes you better even if you don't talk to people.
mummy sad sad, kayden also sad sad! so mummy shouldn't emo! :D
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